Entry 3 : Start of the week, End of the Line
Today is Monday and it's the last Monday in my school for this year, and hopefully for the rest of my life. I will takes my oral exams starting next week and it will define the rest of my life for the next 3 years if I pass it.
One week, 3 years of life. That's quite unfair.
Moreover if I not pass (which is very probable) I will have to redo my year, and I don't want that. I want to change. Change my environment, how I works, how I socialize and more importantly, how I defines myself. I don't want to feels imprisoned in a daily routine which already consume me too much. By making an enormous step, I hope to destroy it, making a new one if necessary, but better for me, where I can feel I really choose it and carry me instead of being a burden.
But make no mistake, I'm keeping my friends and the people I care about. I couldn't do otherwise. It's just that, if all goes well, they'll see a change in the way I live and go about my life.
Btw this post was written by listening the song Devil Never Cry from Devil May Cry 3